Monday, March 24, 2008
oh wow. realise i long time no blog. oh well. whether i got blog or not also nobody reads it . so not really bother.
after these few days at home, i cannot wait for Kame-sama (Jap for God) to destroy earth. I can't really wait.. I want it to be destroyed now. That way all the bonds that I have to people will be successfully be destroyed. and not like now, want disappear don't want to disappear. haha.. Or maybe it was actually destroyed, just that I didn't want to admit it. Haha. But now I just want all bonds to be destroyed. Because I hate these useless bonds.
People who are supposedly your friends. People who are supposed to be your friend. Not just any friend. Should I say good friend? Hmm, or are we good friends? Or just normal friends that do not care about each other? Or was it just my imagination?
- Mates that go out together. Mates that I thought are my mates. Mates that I thought would ask me out together with them. Haha. How wonderful..
Iguides peeps are the best!! though its been a little late, last monday we celebrated Wei Zheng's birthday. I was glad to be invited to join. Went on a few outings with them. Had a wonderful time with them.
At least better than so-called friends who don't ask me out. Haha. Maybe I should just forget about these people. Because THEY SUCKS. You wanna be a better friend?
DONT KID ME, FREAKY LIER. YOU JUST WORSENED, DIDN'T YOU FEEL IT? Maybe you are a better friend to other people, certainly not to me.
oh well. it certainly killed my mood. I'm going to forget you. Forget you these friends. Sayonara.
after these few days at home, i cannot wait for Kame-sama (Jap for God) to destroy earth. I can't really wait.. I want it to be destroyed now. That way all the bonds that I have to people will be successfully be destroyed. and not like now, want disappear don't want to disappear. haha.. Or maybe it was actually destroyed, just that I didn't want to admit it. Haha. But now I just want all bonds to be destroyed. Because I hate these useless bonds.
People who are supposedly your friends. People who are supposed to be your friend. Not just any friend. Should I say good friend? Hmm, or are we good friends? Or just normal friends that do not care about each other? Or was it just my imagination?
- Mates that go out together. Mates that I thought are my mates. Mates that I thought would ask me out together with them. Haha. How wonderful..
Iguides peeps are the best!! though its been a little late, last monday we celebrated Wei Zheng's birthday. I was glad to be invited to join. Went on a few outings with them. Had a wonderful time with them.
At least better than so-called friends who don't ask me out. Haha. Maybe I should just forget about these people. Because THEY SUCKS. You wanna be a better friend?
DONT KID ME, FREAKY LIER. YOU JUST WORSENED, DIDN'T YOU FEEL IT? Maybe you are a better friend to other people, certainly not to me.
oh well. it certainly killed my mood. I'm going to forget you. Forget you these friends. Sayonara.
I missed you(: 7:27 PM.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
hi blog. bad news.: i forgot the link to my blog. haha
results are out. i did not bad.. as in my results are not bad.. since that sentence is weird.
GPA DROPPED. from 3.52 to 3.45.. dropped 0.07. damn that alvin still get 3.7 sth. he drop only 0.04~ from 3.77 to 3.73.. well, i can only blame myself for the drop right. so i must start working harder.
NO JOBS YET.. sians. ntuc doesn't call me either.. what the hell is this lo. damn saddening.
results are out. i did not bad.. as in my results are not bad.. since that sentence is weird.
GPA DROPPED. from 3.52 to 3.45.. dropped 0.07. damn that alvin still get 3.7 sth. he drop only 0.04~ from 3.77 to 3.73.. well, i can only blame myself for the drop right. so i must start working harder.
NO JOBS YET.. sians. ntuc doesn't call me either.. what the hell is this lo. damn saddening.
I missed you(: 10:35 PM.
Sunday, March 09, 2008
NOOOOOoooo...
I am very scared ...
Why leh? because exam results are coming out. I totally have no confidence. I NO CONFIDENCE AT ALL.. HAIS. dont really want to see my results, cause i scared it will be lousy. no, it might be lousy. hais.. just hope dont need to take sub paper. but HPI.. hais not sure la. like so many marks gone le. hais. total speechless. sobs..
nice song:
An old story of a country waiting to be awakened
I'll sacrifice the light that dwells in my heart
A star turns into hope, I can see the future
My beloved, wait for me
The profile of fate that stands at the window of my heart
I'll light the light that protects dreams
The star says to just chose one
But, if my beloved calls me, it will change
Untainted feathers dance beautifully
I'll carry the holy child's light of life
To become a star it can't be born
Sleep in the arms of your beloved
The story of the country waiting for an end concludes
Let us swear to the single ray of hope
When the heavens are reborn with the shooting star
I will also fall asleep in order to love
目覚めを待つ国の むかしのはなし
ささげましょう胸に 宿るひかり
星になるきぼう あしたが見える
愛するひとよ 待ってておくれ
こころの窓に立つ さだめの横顔
ともしましょう夢を 守るひかり
星はただひとり 選べと告げる
愛するひとが わたしを呼べば変わる
うるわしく立ち舞う けがれなき羽
背負いましょう御子の 命のひかり
星になるために 生まれてはならぬ
愛するひとに 抱かれてねむれ
滅びに立つ国の ものがたりはおわる
誓いましょう次の 世界のひかり
星が奏でるうた 生まれかわる時代
愛するために 最後の乙女とねむれ
mezame wo matsu kuni no mukashi no hanashi
sasagemashou mune ni yadoru hikari
hoshi ni naru kibou ashita ga mieru
ai suru hito yo mattete okure
kokoro no mado ni tatsu sadame no yokogao
tomoshimashou yume wo mamoru hikari
hoshi wa tada hitori erabe to tsugeru
ai suru hito ga watashi wo yobeba kawaru
uruwashiku tachi mau kegarenaki hane
seoimashou miko no inochi no hikari
hoshi ni naru tame ni umarete wa naranu
ai suru hito ni idakarete nemure
horobi ni tatsu kuni no monogatari wa owaru
chikaimashou tsugi no sekai no hikari
hoshi ga kanaderu uta umarekawaru toki
ai suru tame ni saigo no otome to nemure
I am very scared ...
Why leh? because exam results are coming out. I totally have no confidence. I NO CONFIDENCE AT ALL.. HAIS. dont really want to see my results, cause i scared it will be lousy. no, it might be lousy. hais.. just hope dont need to take sub paper. but HPI.. hais not sure la. like so many marks gone le. hais. total speechless. sobs..
nice song:
An old story of a country waiting to be awakened
I'll sacrifice the light that dwells in my heart
A star turns into hope, I can see the future
My beloved, wait for me
The profile of fate that stands at the window of my heart
I'll light the light that protects dreams
The star says to just chose one
But, if my beloved calls me, it will change
Untainted feathers dance beautifully
I'll carry the holy child's light of life
To become a star it can't be born
Sleep in the arms of your beloved
The story of the country waiting for an end concludes
Let us swear to the single ray of hope
When the heavens are reborn with the shooting star
I will also fall asleep in order to love
目覚めを待つ国の むかしのはなし
ささげましょう胸に 宿るひかり
星になるきぼう あしたが見える
愛するひとよ 待ってておくれ
こころの窓に立つ さだめの横顔
ともしましょう夢を 守るひかり
星はただひとり 選べと告げる
愛するひとが わたしを呼べば変わる
うるわしく立ち舞う けがれなき羽
背負いましょう御子の 命のひかり
星になるために 生まれてはならぬ
愛するひとに 抱かれてねむれ
滅びに立つ国の ものがたりはおわる
誓いましょう次の 世界のひかり
星が奏でるうた 生まれかわる時代
愛するために 最後の乙女とねむれ
mezame wo matsu kuni no mukashi no hanashi
sasagemashou mune ni yadoru hikari
hoshi ni naru kibou ashita ga mieru
ai suru hito yo mattete okure
kokoro no mado ni tatsu sadame no yokogao
tomoshimashou yume wo mamoru hikari
hoshi wa tada hitori erabe to tsugeru
ai suru hito ga watashi wo yobeba kawaru
uruwashiku tachi mau kegarenaki hane
seoimashou miko no inochi no hikari
hoshi ni naru tame ni umarete wa naranu
ai suru hito ni idakarete nemure
horobi ni tatsu kuni no monogatari wa owaru
chikaimashou tsugi no sekai no hikari
hoshi ga kanaderu uta umarekawaru toki
ai suru tame ni saigo no otome to nemure
I missed you(: 10:25 PM.
Saturday, March 08, 2008
yeah i am working on saturday =] money money.
oya. you think i naive issit? say never go out but seriously i think you guys went out only didnt tell me, or was it intended? nope i am not shooting anybody. i guess my "experience" from primary school made me not trust people that easily, why because i have been betrayed quite alot of times. maybe i should try learning to betray people too?
at that IT fair, i am going to get my IPOD CLASSIC 80GB yes that is mine. i will get it.. yes i want that.haha. but nah i dont think so. at least i think i try to cherish my friendships. i share my thoughts, what i want, what i wish, my loves with my friends. even though i wish they share their thoughts with me, no they didn't, i didn't blame them. because they do not treat me as close as i treat them right? so i cannot ask them for the impossible. but is it right for them to ask me for their impossible?
these few days i thought quite alot. usually everyday i also think alot. LOLS. i wanna excel, i wanna win. is that what makes me a terrible person? ha. oya, dying is the only way out for me and only for me. for the rest of u who wanna die, please go find some other method and not copy me. if i wanna let u die, i rather not do it. i rather be like the past kings, torture their victims than let them die. too bad i dont have a victim. =]
oya. you think i naive issit? say never go out but seriously i think you guys went out only didnt tell me, or was it intended? nope i am not shooting anybody. i guess my "experience" from primary school made me not trust people that easily, why because i have been betrayed quite alot of times. maybe i should try learning to betray people too?
at that IT fair, i am going to get my IPOD CLASSIC 80GB yes that is mine. i will get it.. yes i want that.haha. but nah i dont think so. at least i think i try to cherish my friendships. i share my thoughts, what i want, what i wish, my loves with my friends. even though i wish they share their thoughts with me, no they didn't, i didn't blame them. because they do not treat me as close as i treat them right? so i cannot ask them for the impossible. but is it right for them to ask me for their impossible?
these few days i thought quite alot. usually everyday i also think alot. LOLS. i wanna excel, i wanna win. is that what makes me a terrible person? ha. oya, dying is the only way out for me and only for me. for the rest of u who wanna die, please go find some other method and not copy me. if i wanna let u die, i rather not do it. i rather be like the past kings, torture their victims than let them die. too bad i dont have a victim. =]
I missed you(: 12:33 AM.
Thursday, March 06, 2008
suddenly i didnt know the meaning of friends. seriously are they my friends? or i was just imaging them to be my friends.
total disappointment with them. curse them
what to say leh. chalet was fun. manjong throughout the night. night cycling.
oh ya. i hate being betrayed. and i just found out some fucking asshole people did something that hurt me. did i say i hate being hurt, being ignored being the last to know things.
i wouldnt cry. because crying would just fall into their trap. i wouldn't suffer, because that will just make them happy. instead, i will hate them. hate them silently in my heart. because i know their so-called comfort are lies.
total disappointment with them. curse them
what to say leh. chalet was fun. manjong throughout the night. night cycling.
oh ya. i hate being betrayed. and i just found out some fucking asshole people did something that hurt me. did i say i hate being hurt, being ignored being the last to know things.
i wouldnt cry. because crying would just fall into their trap. i wouldn't suffer, because that will just make them happy. instead, i will hate them. hate them silently in my heart. because i know their so-called comfort are lies.
I missed you(: 9:07 PM.
